The Anaphene Project

Transcend my friend. Transcend

2010-10-18T08:14:00.000-07:00

My only desire is to evolve beyond the limitations of this body.....

This plane...

beyond this rat race of materialism and financial gain.

This I ask.

Because in my heart, I know that what I have been taught is far from the answer

when it becomes obvious that your education is the cancer that plagues my mind

I'd gladly renounce ignorance for an ounce of wisdom any day....because who I am is not the person in the mirror but the consciousness within the person, and all along my attachment was to the physical and I wonder why I am constantly hurting.....

The seed

2010-10-16T18:51:00.000-07:00

With Sincerity it becomes natural for someone to open their heart

so make every moment worth it showing them you belong in their life.....

Unbeknowst to me, she said I chipped away a few bricks.

No magic tricks.

I was only being myself

and when she found the courage to say

"I love you"

that's when I realized the power of friendship.

2010-10-02T14:07:00.000-07:00

It is the cause of isolation.

This can't be pretend.

All you feel is frustration, but know not where it begins

You fight it and fight it, but just want it to end

but you have to endure, for to end it is sin

Let's escape this world and create our own

2010-09-30T15:28:00.000-07:00

Soon we'll part this earthly body,

to journey to a world where freedom resides.....

not alone, but with you beside me...

into the cosmos of distant skies....

We'll touch one another

and radiate bliss.....

a feeling of love

one can not resist....

For on this plane

no fear resides.

Only droplets of joy

from our waterfall eyes....

We'll look back at the sorrows of yesterday's past

to appreciate the fate that made us ONE at last..

in a world of our own......

Saul Williams - DNA

2010-09-20T15:34:00.000-07:00

New Beginnings

2010-09-20T15:32:00.000-07:00

A new life.

A new beginning.

Old ways die.

We cling to them no longer.

New ways live.

We embrace them stronger.

We create new footprints by walking new paths.

Fear can not hold us as we take our first steps to freedom.

Each Day

2010-09-15T16:40:00.000-07:00

Each day I remove a layer

now comfortable in my own skin

for you've proven that you are a friend

Vibrate Higher

2010-09-15T16:03:00.000-07:00

"Greatness resides in everyone. The sad part is that some of us place barriers on ourselves that keep it locked in."

We must remove the barriers we've placed on my minds. Our minds are more powerful than we have been lead to believe. The truth to our existence lies within. If only we could tap into this potential. We are celestial beings inhabiting a physical body.. Spiritual beings on a physical journey. How beautiful is it to know that you are not a slave; that you are not limited; that your higher self is waiting for you to unlock him/her. Resist the lies.. open your eyes, heart , and mind to who you really are......

gods/goddesses

Maybe

2010-08-23T12:38:00.000-07:00

Maybe this world should end
Maybe we all should die.....

Maybe.. Maybe

Maybe I am a slave
Maybe this is a grave..

Maybe. Maybe

Maybe its me who's wrong
Maybe its you who's right

Maybe..Maybe

Maybe I shouldn't think
or constantly question things..

Maybe...Maybe

Maybe I shouldn't use my mind
and just let them lead me blind

Maybe...Maybe

Maybe my soul belongs in hell
for feeling the way I felt

Maybe.. Maybe

Maybe I should stop trying
and accept humans dying

Maybe... Maybe

Maybe I should accept
your lies
with much great respect

maybe.... maybe..

But guess what?????

I WON'T

THE 5 STEPS TO OVERCOMING HEARTBREAK

2010-08-04T12:06:00.000-07:00

SO HE BROKE YOUR HEART AND LATELY YOU FIND YOURSELF CRYING OVER HIM AND FEELING ANGRY FOR WHAT HE DID TO YOU. YOU FEEL BETRAYED, CRUSHED, AND ON THE BRINK OF INSANITY. WILL IT GET BETTER? COULD YOU EVER MUSTER UP ENOUGH COURAGE TO BECOME STRONG AND MOVE ON? WELL I'M TELLING YOU THAT YOU CAN; YOU CAN AND YOU WILL, HEAL AND MOVE ON. YOU WILL NEVER FORGET BUT IN TIME, THOSE MEMORIES WILL HAVE NO POWER OVER YOU. YOU WILL RECALL THAT TIME IN YOUR LIFE AND LAUGH ABOUT IT. YOU WILL LEARN FROM IT AND GROW FROM IT. WHAT MOST PEOPLE WHO HAD THEIR HEARTBROKEN FAIL TO UNDERSTAND IS THAT EVERYTHING PASSES. EVEN THE MOST TRAGIC MOMENTS OF OUR LIVES WILL FADE IN TIME. LIFE IS FULL OF DISAPPOINTMENTS... FRIENDS WHO COME AND GO, SITUATIONS THAT ALWAYS CHANGE, AND LOVE THAT BEGINS AND ENDS... ITS DIFFICULT TO DEAL WITH SOMETIMES, TRUST ME I KNOW; I'VE HAD MY HEARTBROKEN TOO AND IT WAS A VERY DIFFICULT PROCESS FOR ME AS WELL SO FOR YOU I'VE COMPILED A LIST OF THINGS FOR YOU TO DO THAT WILL HELP YOU OVERCOME THIS SETBACK IN YOUR LIFE BECAUSE THAT'S EXACTLY WHAT IT IS; A SETBACK; A LIFE SITUATION AND NOT THE END OF YOUR LIFE FOR THERE WAS LIFE BEFORE YOUR HEARTBREAK AND SURELY THERE WILL BE LIFE AFTER.............

STEP 1: DO NOT BLAME YOURSELF!!!!!!

THIS IS VERY IMPORTANT. YOU MAY FEEL THAT SOMETHING WAS WRONG WITH YOU FOR HIM TO CHEAT ON YOU. YOU MAY BEGIN TO QUESTION WHETHER YOU WERE PRETTY OR BEAUTIFUL ENOUGH. WHETHER YOU WERE MISSING SOMETHING THAT THOSE OTHER GIRLS MAY HAVE HAD. THIS IS THE POINT WHERE YOU'RE SELF ESTEEM DROPS AND YOU FEEL LESS OF A PERSON OR MORE SO THAT YOU'RE INCAPABLE OF BEING LOVED. STOP RIGHT THERE!!! BEFORE YOU GO OFF MAKING JUDGEMENTS ABOUT YOURSELF AND PLACING THE BLAME SOLELY ON YOURSELF, ACKNOWLEDGE THE GOOD YOU BROUGHT TO THE RELATIONSHIP EVEN IF YOU POSSESSED FLAWS. UNDERSTAND THAT YOU GAVE YOUR BEST. REMEMBER YOU ARE ONLY HUMAN . DON'T BEAT YOURSELF UP.. AS A MATTER OF FACT, LOOK INTO THE MIRROR AND TELL YOURSELF THAT YOU ARE A BEAUTIFUL PERSON WITH A GOOD HEART AND THAT DESPITE THIS HURTFUL EXPERIENCE , YOU WILL TAKE SOMETHING FROM IT AND BECOME A BETTER YOU WHICH LEADS US TO OUR SECOND STEP

STEP 2: GAIN WISDOM

THERE IS ALWAYS A LESSON TO LEARN.. TAKE FROM THIS SITUATION A LESSON TO MAKE YOU A BETTER PERSON. MAYBE THE INTUITION WAS ALWAYS THERE BUT YOU IGNORED IT. MAYBE THE LESSON IS TO TRUST YOUR "INNER FEELING" THE NEXT TIME YOU'RE IN A RELATIONSHIP. MAYBE THE LESSON WAS THAT THIS PERSON WASN'T MEANT FOR YOU. IT COULD BE A HOST OF THINGS. THE KEY HERE IS TO BE HONEST WITH YOURSELF. YOU HAVE TO BE AWARE OF WHAT NEEDS TO BE WORKED ON OR ELSE THE SAME PATTERN MAY OCCUR WHEN YOU GET INTO ANOTHER RELATIONSHIP.

STEP 3: REBUILD

NOW IS THE TIME TO GATHER UP ALL YOUR WEAKNESSES AND EVERYTHING THAT YOU'VE LEARNED AND REBUILD.. MAKE IT FUN.. IT CAN BE EXERCISING TO CRETE A NEW FIGURE, TRYING A NEW HAIRSTYLE OR WARDROBE, ETC. THE REBUILDING PROCESS IS FOR YOU CREATE A NEW "YOU" IT SYMBOLIZES A NEW BEGINNING, A NEW STAGE IN YOUR LIFE TO START FRESH AND INVITE NEW PEOPLE, EXPERIENCES, AND ADVENTURES INTO YOUR LIFE

STEP 4: CHANGE YOUR PHILOSOPHY

YOU PROBABLY CREATED A MINDSET THAT DWELLS ON A LOT OF NEGATIVITY... ITS A LOT OF ANGER WITHIN YOU AND GREAT PESSIMISM. YOU'RE PROBABLY SAYING FORGET LOVE AND EVERYTHING THAT COMES WITH IT. YOU MOST LIKELY BELIEVE THAT ALL MEN ARE THE SAME AND YOU'VE PLACE THESE DIFFICULT BARRIERS UP. WELL THIS MENTALITY WONT HAVE YOU FINDING LOVE NO TIME SOON NOR HAVE MEN WANTING TO BE AROUND YOU. IF YOU CONTINUE TO PLAY THE VICTIM, ITS GOING TO PUSH GUYS WHO COULD POSSIBLY BE RIGHT FOR YOU AWAY.. THEY'RE GOING TO ALWAYS FEEL THAT YOU SOMEHOW PLACED THEM INTO A CATEGORY OF SOMEONE WHO WILL EVENTUALLY MESS UP LIKE THE LAST GUY. THE KEY HERE IS TO ASSIGN RESPONSIBILITY TO THE ONE WHO DID WRONG, NOT EVERY OTHER GUY. I KNOW ITS DIFFICULT BUT YOU CANT WEAR YOUR HURT ON YOUR SLEEVE. YOU HAVE TO BE POSITIVE IN ORDER TO INVITE POSITIVE SITUATIONS OR PEOPLE INTO YOUR LIFE.THIS IS THE LAW OF ATTRACTION... YOU HAVE TO BELIEVE AND SEE YOURSELF BEING WITH THIS WONDERFUL PERSON AND BEING IN A POSITIVE AND HARMONIOUS RELATIONSHIP.

STEP 5: HAVE FUN &ENJOY LIFE; BE CONTENT WITH YOUR SITUATION

NO ONE WANTS TO BE HURT AND ALONE; BUT WHILE YOU SPEND YOUR NIGHTS SOBBING INTO THE PILLOW, THE WORLD IS STILL GOING.. YOU CAN NOT STOP LIVING FOR A PERSON WHO WONT STOP LIVING FOR YOU. TO BE CONTENT WITH YOUR SITUATION IS TO ACCEPT IT FOR WHAT IT IS; A SITUATION. THIS IS THE PERFECT TIME TO KEEP YOURSELF BUSY.. START A NEW HOBBY.. MEET NEW FRIENDS.. TRAVEL AND JUST DO NEW AND EXCITING THINGS THAT YOU'VE NEVER TRIED.. WHILE BEING SINGLE SUCKS SOMETIMES, THIS IS THE PERFECT OPPORTUNITY TO DISCOVER THINGS ABOUT YOURSELF YOU NEVER KNEW.. AFTER ALL, THIS IS THE PERFECT TIME FOR YOU TO TREAT LIFE LIKE AN ADVENTURE

The Beauty Within

2010-07-14T20:13:00.000-07:00

"You once was unpopular and nerdy but as your outside developed into a beautiful shell, your EGO grew as well and now to outshine those who once ridiculed you, you realize you became one of THEM and lost the beauty of YOU."-(Self)

I used to want people to like me, but now I realize that I am a beautiful anomaly. As much as I reject conformity, I admit that sometimes I just want people to care, to understand who I am on the inside. I want them to see how beautiful I am yet somehow they always overlook it....

One day they will get it... hopefully it wont be too late

Pendulum 'Witchcraft'

2010-07-14T19:54:00.000-07:00

This song inspires me........

The Astral Plane

2010-07-14T19:52:00.000-07:00

To fly away where peace resides;
where I no longer have to battle with pride
To venture beyond; where the light is seen
To disembody to the state of dreams.

I want to go where you are.....

Take me

The Prodigy - Voodoo People (Pendulum Remix)

2010-07-13T08:05:00.000-07:00

I love this record... perhaps I will used it for my upcoming mixtape.....

Universal Law Theory

2010-07-11T11:37:00.000-07:00

I'm no longer going to say belief/ believe unless it's something I personally experienced with the 5 senses and not with just the mind, imagination, etc

I have a theory that somehow our lives, circumstances, etc are an effect of causes resulting from universal laws..If we take for example the idea of God as a loving and kind creator, then a situation where a baby is born for a few hours only to die would make us question how kind he is.. I'm saying he because this is the most AGREEABLE description of how people see GOD. There are a lot of things that occur in the world that make you question both the logic and reasoning behind this God.. Here are a few examples:

• Famine, poverty, war, violence
• babies born with malfunctions, diseases, etc

These are just a couple points, now to get to my point of explaining this.. I stated above that I have a theory that our lives, circumstances, etc are effects of causes due to universal laws.. If you think about this, a person that may be BORN to certain conditions just may be reaping the cause of previous bad karma... This could be a strong case.... Why else would a loving god create you to be born unto conditions in which you suffer, die young, born with a disease , etc.. People say this is his will or way and that there is a purpose behind it but ask yourself, DOES THIS REALLY MAKE SENSE?

Why is it that some people are born to favorable conditions or environments? If this is our ONLY life that we will ever live, then what did some people do to GOD to be born into misfortune that they NEVER had control of to begin with.. (this seems rather cruel don't you think)

My theory is that karma is the law that allows us to evolve.. Karma is based upon action and thought, cause and effect..which may in fact propose the possibility that WE ARE IN FACT THE SOLE MASTERS OF OUR LIVES OR IN CONTROL OF ALL THE CIRCUMSTANCES WE CREATE FOR OURSELVES IN THIS LIFE OR THE NEXT..whether we'll be reborn into earth or another realm (heavenly or hell) is yet to be determined..

Jeremy Enigk - "Mind Idea" OFFICIAL VIDEO

2010-06-13T15:46:00.000-07:00

Her Fight

2010-06-13T15:44:00.000-07:00

She lies awake yet finds herself still sleeping; dreaming of moments where there lies no grieving.

Happiness is what she searches for, still unsure whether time will be her ally or enemy...

She wishes he could be there; that he would care like he once did in the beginning....but even joyful moments change and have their ending.

She fights with love

She fights with hope, or the lack thereof.

She fights with understanding, demanding

that one day things will be clear....and when that day arrives, she will come to know that it was I who was always here.

Vipassana Meditation Camp

2010-06-11T09:51:00.000-07:00

These are a few pictures from the vipassana meditation camp I attended. Despite talking to these gentlemen for only a day, it felt like we've known one another for years. These are truly good people with good hearts.. May they all experience real joy. Real Peace. Real Happiness. :)

2010-06-11T09:43:00.000-07:00

This book is a must read for those who wish to understand this phenomenon we call love. It contains so much wisdom and gives the reader a more deeper understanding of what is and what isn't love.. I definitely recommend this book to anyone whether you're single or in a relationship.. Trust me. Its contents with enrich your life. :)

Cee-Lo Green -- I Want You (Radio Rip) NEW

2010-06-11T09:33:00.000-07:00

I love this song. I love the honesty and passion in cee-lo's lyrics.. this song was produced by jack Splash who by the way if you haven't heard of him is a dope producer... enjoy.. I dedicate this song to my distant friend.. :)

Thank You

2010-03-06T12:15:00.000-08:00

Its such a beautiful world that we live in.. if only we could see beyond the ugliness.... the distortion.... the wars.. the rascism...the injustice..the poverty and see that we are the cause of all that lies in front of our eyes... A billion minds...a billion perspectives on what life is...

Life in its natural state is like a blank canvas...filled with an array of colors and styles that gives it color and meaning. We are those colors... We are those styles. We are all beautiful. We are all unique. We all have something to offer.

I'd like to thank all who have followed the anaphene project.. Even if I haven't met you, know that I love you all and that what I do, although its a reflection of my thoughts, is because of you. My purpose is to help people explore deeper

not only themselves but love, life, good, evil, wisdom, and ignorance and know that WE have the power to change the world but first we much change ourselves.......

May the light continuously shine on you

Love,

Sage

In search of......who we are

2010-03-05T13:53:00.000-08:00

My theory is that somethings are unknown to mankind because we're limited to the 5 sense reality. What we see, touch, taste, smell, and hear is how we define our reality, what's real and what isnt. So many mysteries....so many limitations BUT IS LIFE REALLY A MYSTERY? ARE WE REALLY LIMITED?

Some search for the truth externally yet never find answers. coincidence? maybe? maybe not.

We use a small percentage of our brain compacity(10%). What could we possibly do if we inherited 100% at birth? What lies ahead for humans once we discover and unlock our full potential? The possibilities are limitless!!

Scientist have only 3% knowledge of DNA, the other 97% has been written off as "junk" DNA. Does the fact that because we dont know its use mean that we should classify it as "JUNK''? Uncovering this could be an evolutionary breakthrough! Who are we? What are we truly capable of?

It is the mysteries that amaze me more, which leaves me adamant on unlocking my full potential as a spiritual being on this here physical journey..

The Cosmic Joke

2010-02-23T12:10:00.000-08:00

"Its funny how in this world we can unite in the name of music but segregate in the name of god.."

This world is made of many souls which form the collective reality..... Is this collective reality a manifestation of our thoughts or of an intelligent architect who is the director behind our every thought, emotion, and action, all which can be classified as either wholesome or unwholesome, good or bad, wise or unwise...
I ask myself all the time. Am I slave with no control who serves a master intent on punishing me if I do not carry out his orders? Orders that are supposedly pre destined for me to perform anyway?
I wonder if a creator god truly exists or did mankind himself create qualities to describe an entity that he himself felt inferior to. This world has become the great paradox.. a cosmic joke with god being the comedian...

Wars have been fought in the name of religion and god.. Countless humans slain all in the name of upholding who/what man considers to be god. The god that many worship is the reflection of the humans he created... A jealous person capable of destruction but also capable of creation. We call ourselves human yet we're limited to this state of existence we call the physical plane unable to transcend space and time to understand that which we call god or a state of spiritual transcendence.

I do not have the answers but I learned that what doesn't makes sense should be re-examined. If it becomes that we hurt, harm, or destroy others in the name of god......then we're leading ourselves further from the truth....

''You must unlearn what you have learned.''- Yoda

Is it a mystery at all this thing called love?

2010-02-17T11:08:00.001-08:00

I've learned that love has no opposites..

Love isn't loving someone one moment and hating them the next. In order for a relationship to be harmonious, both parties would have to destroy their egos. All attachments to the ego would have to cease but what does it mean to love without attachment?
Are we able to love with the understanding that this isn't forever?
We don't always know the nature of others and their purpose of coming into our lives..
We can only appreciate and nurture one another while we're here...I know nothing last forever but at least while we're here you can do great things together..
If I met someone wonderful, is it a bad thing that this person makes me happy when happiness is based on external conditions that inevitably will change? What if it's joy that I feel...?
I'm still learning what love is as well as what love isn't..
It isn't jealousy, conflict, or strife.. It isn't dillusion...but love is harmony.. Love is positive energy emanating from both parties involved...love is gratitude for the person you love,their flaws as well as their strengths.
A person's strengths will bring you light while a person's flaws will help strengthen you, for what you see in another as a flaw is something you should examine within yourself....

The more I learn about myself and love, the more interesting this journey called life becomes..........

THE AMERICAN DREAM

2010-02-13T16:06:00.000-08:00

Yet It draws them in...
steadily soothing their minds with an array of lies,
destroying their self-esteem.......
causing them to seek happiness through the accumulation of material things
and broken dreams......

Now everyone wants to become what they see on television.....
Now companies get rich and life becomes a bitch because we're all just racing to become a part of it......

THE AMERICAN DREAM

The Master Or The Slave

2010-02-09T21:24:00.000-08:00

Bound to a state of ignorance without the slightest clue of emancipation.

A puppet, no different from a slave.

No freedom in free will if it leads to a grave.

The path you pave contains no one who saves

when the enemy is selfand within it is rage.

They all hold the answers.

They all contain truths.

None greater than the other.

One's experience is proof.

The mind is the master, but who masters the mind?

Who understands existence beyond space and time?

Buddha nature or the nature of sin.

Born as a human but born what, within?

-Sage Phenix

The battle of the mind pt 1: the destruction we created

2009-09-01T16:44:00.001-07:00

I've come to the realization that the most difficult task in life and not in the form of poverty, hardship, heartache, or death but the most difficult task is in conquering the mind. Some call it self mastery but one thing that can be said about this arduous task is that is that probably the solution to the many problems that plaque the world as we know it today.

Look within your mind. What does it contain? An array of thoughts both negative and positive in form but the key ingredient to what lies manifested in front of your eyes. We are creators of our own universe with our thoughts being the blueprint to both our survival and our demise. Just think of all the destruction this world contains. All the hatred, wars, violence, and chaos. It all originates from how we "view" one another based upon you guessed it: our thinking...

Let the moment of reflection begin

2009-07-02T05:33:00.000-07:00

I'M READY TO EXIST IN A PLACE WHERE THERE LIES NO SUFFERING

WHEN I SAY THAT I'M HAPPY OR JOYFUL, IM LYING TO MYSELF… I’M JUST TELLING MYSELF THAT TO GET MY MIND TO BELIEVE IT BECAUSE IT HAS BEEN SAID THAT YOU ARE WHAT YOU BELIEVE. YOU ARE THE SUM OF YOUR THOUGHTS.. MAN IS WHAT MAN THINKETH…… BUT THAT’S A FALSE HAPPINESS. A FALSE JOY…..

THE JOY THAT I'M LOOKING FOR ISNT BASED SOLELY ON THE MIND. THE JOY AND HAPPINESS THAT IM LOOKING FOR ISNT TEMPORARY. IT ISNT A FEELING BECAUSE FEELINGS ARE BASED UPON EXTERNAL THINGS. IT IS A PERMANENT EXISTENCE. IT IS THE ESSENCE OF WHO I AM.

IT'S NOT EVEN BASED UPON A BELIEF…

ITS JUST THERE!

INSIDE ME….. IT IS ME… WE ARE ONE…..

THIS IS WHAT I’M TALKING ABOUT…. MANY WILL LISTEN BUT FEW WILL ACTUALLY UNDERSTAND….
I FEEL LIKE I’M BEGINNING TO WAKE UP AND SEE THIS WORLD FOR WHAT IT IS AND WHAT ITS NOT…..

IT’S LIKE BEING WARM ON THE INSIDE DESPITE EXISTING IN A COLD CLIMATE… THE OUTSIDE DOESN’T BOTHER YOU AT ALL.

THIS IS WHAT OUR MINDS DO….IT ALLOWS US TO BASE OUR HAPPINES ON PERCEPTIONS BUT WHAT IF THE PERCEPTIONS WERE ILLUSIONS?

THEN YOU CAN SAY THAT ALL ALONG WE WERE CLINGING TO FALSE THINGS…..WHICH WILL ALLOW US TO CONSTANTLY SUFFER…..

AND EVEN SUFFERING CAN BE AVOIDED DESPITE WHAT MANY PEOPLE THINK (I.E IT’S A PART OF LIFE, YOU HAVE TO SUFFER ON EARTH…..ETC ETC)

THE SUFFERING MUST COME TO AN END
AND THIS EXPLAINS WHY I’M READY TO DIE……

FOR IN DEATH COMES LIFE

2009-07-02T05:10:00.000-07:00

The happiness that I seek, where can it be found??

Right now I feel like dying. Not in a physical sense per se but mentally I wish I could destroy all these thoughts, dogma, and worldly perspectives from my mind so that I may obtain a peace within that’s beyond this physical plane of existence. Nothing is of inspiration to me anymore. The life that occupies my body is living, breathing, and spectacular yet this existence lies trapped (temporarily) on a mundane planet that has no understanding of PEACE. If time could stop. If worries would fade… If joy could pervade through both the mind and body. What would life be like then?
A return to the source of all things?
What is the source of my being?
My hello to this world is my goodbye. To die is to in fact to live……

And I’m ready to die…..

2009-06-25T11:42:00.000-07:00

Are we living?
Or are we just here.

The days are the same
How sad this routine life

Keeping us afloat through the hope
of a tomorrow that isn’t here…

What we fear is that
What we waited our precious moments hoping for

will never come.
This cant be life.

The change has to start now
Before its too late

And we lose out on what’s really important….
Happiness…..
Joy…..
The moment of now……

In Wonderland

2009-05-27T07:04:00.000-07:00

I’ve come to a point in my life where I question everything that was either bestowed upon, taught, or told to me. Am I spiritual? Am I antheist? Am I agnostic? The truth is I don’t even know who I am. I only know that I am a product of other people’s opinions, lessons, words, and thoughts… This doesn’t make me………..ME…..
Am I an individual??
or am I a robot that has been programmed with useless software intended to keep me under control??

I realize that to believe in something means to experience it…. (or at least it should be this way)

I know what love is……
I know what happiness is as well…..

But how do I explain these things to someone who havent experienced this or has a different experience from what I’m explaining????

There are so many lies…….from history to religion to media to government……
What’s left to believe in??

Is faith and hope just meant to keep us afloat??

No two people see the world the same way
But the way I see it, there isnt MUCH love…….
There isnt MUCH peace……
There isnt MUCH happiness………

It just doesn’t make sense……..

It truly feels like we’re just a part of some game/experiment to prove what????

Although I feel lost, I’m thirsty for the truth

Which leaves me to ask:
What is the truth if the truth I thought was the truth was really in truth a lie??

The IN "FEAR" IORTY COMPLEX

2009-05-06T06:10:00.000-07:00

I just want PEACE of mind,
The world is NOT going to change
We just have to change how we REACT to it……

This is what I’m teaching myself everyday….Everything happens to mentally train your mind.
All of this bullsh*t from the recession, stock market crash, unemployment, etc

It’s all MENTAL. Mentally we react to it in a manner that brings fear, frustration, and anxiety to ourselves….

FEAR is a powerful force……..
It can drive us insane, force us to lose faith, force us to harm ourselves and others, etc…….

Example: If someone lost their Job, they would react one of two ways. If fear was produced from them being fired, then they would instantly panic about how they’re going to survive until they find a job…….how will the mortgage be paid, etc, etc….etc but if they were the opposite and wasn’t fear driven, then they would understand that things happen (whether for a reason or cause and effect) and they would have faith that they would find another job and that things would be restored to a normal fashion….. No one dies from being FIRED……WE STILL HAVE OUR HEALTH AND OUR LIFE….WE STILL HAVE OPTIONS, CHOICES, AND OPPORTUNITIES THAT WE CAN CREATE FOR OURSELVES……

IT’S NOT THE STRESSFUL SITUATIONS OR HARDTIMES

BUT HOW WE REACT TO IT……….

So ask yourself this question

Are you FEAR or FAITH driven?

The Remembrance

2009-05-04T06:05:00.001-07:00

A dear friend of mine asked me "when its all said and done, how would you liked to be remembered."
and so I replied:

A small quiet gentleman with a big heart, loud ideas with an open and free mind.

A man who embraced creativity through music and film to bring people together not break them apart.
A man who went against the grain to stand out not because it was cool or trendy but because he wanted others to embrace their individualism as well. A man who found himself through self discovery by traveling the world, gaining insight from not one but many things. A man who gained strength through his adversity.
A man who became the change he wished to see in the world.
For when He leaves, He'll become a part of the sun so that He may forever shine upon everyone that he leaves behind.

How would you like to be remembered when its all said and done?

A lie painted white

2009-04-26T13:23:00.001-07:00

For some people it becomes a habit to deceive others. Some lie to protect. Some lie to deceive which leads me to ask, " Are we capable of handling the truth."

Honesty is an act of integrity even if it hurts. The idea behind honesty is that even if we hurt one another by telling the truth, we can accept that we're human even if we don't necessarily agree with each other's actions or decisions.

Do we live and accept a lie because we fear the truth?

The Dream State

2009-04-24T07:00:00.000-07:00

In a dream state……….

What makes the dream when we’re asleep any different from the dream when we’re awake? Are our dreams when we’re sleep an illusion or a subconscious reality?
What is reality?
Is it that which can be detected from the 5 senses?

Is reality the state of being awake?

What defines being awake if in fact we’re really sleeping?
Our eyes are open but are we really aware?
Are we conscious to all that surrounds us or sleeping while awake?

Who Am I?

2009-03-25T12:19:00.000-07:00

When you have to ask yourself this question, it means that you haven't fully discovered the components that make you who you are. Everyday is a day where you learn something new about yourself.

Self Exploration is the key to Self Actualization.

What makes you happy?

What makes you incomparable to others?

What defines you?

Everyone has something to offer the world. Greatness isnt only exhibited through artistry and the like. It can be as simple as how well you embrace others with your presence to how well you embrace others with your story. We're all children of the universe.

Embrace your potential. Embrace your Uniqueness. Embrace who you are

Embrace You

2009-03-24T07:29:00.001-07:00

The perfect dwelling for me to stay.
So long I’ve waited for this day
She doesn’t live here anymore
I don’t want her to.
I’ve realize that we are better apart than we are together
Though sometimes I miss her.
The sweet taste of her lips drenched with the lipstick of both destruction and bliss.
But that’s gone now………
And I’ve become strong now
At peace within this home we no longer share together…..

2009-03-20T07:06:00.000-07:00

“To live our dreams, we must wake up”-Unknown

Today we must reignite that passion we once had to be what we desire to become. We can not leave our creative energy in a suppressed state any longer. Life in general can put a damper on our dreams. We must strive to discover who we are and what our “place” within this world is. We must unlock our unlimited potential. We must strive to become creative. We must inspire the world through art.

Is life not a vast canvas filled with an assortment of styles and colors?
Which color or colors do you represent?

No matter what, we must stop dreaming life, and start living it.

We Must Follow our Own Path

2009-03-02T09:18:00.000-08:00

“Only we can discover the truth for ourselves”

There are too many people in the world who feel that what may apply to them is the same thing that may apply to you. We must realize that we’re all different. We have different viewpoints, opinions, paths, and philosophies. If only we could respect those differences then the world would be a much better place. My truth may not be your truth. My belief may not be your belief. My faith may not be your faith. We have to allow others to just be themselves without judgement or ridicule. If we were the same then we would be an army of robots but despite our programming , we’re still an army of humans………….

Just let each other be.

Good or Bad? Neither. Only what our mind interprets.

2009-02-11T10:31:00.000-08:00

Stress is a feeling in your mind of fear, anxiety, distress, worry, unease, or foreboding caused by using your mind to imagine a bad outcome to a past, present, or future event or situation.

If you’re unhappy with your current situation, continue to think positive while putting forth the necessary action to change it.

We can’t control everything that comes our way but we can however control how we react to those things that come out way.

We make the determination and not the event so therefore we must be determined to see every situation as a situation that is beneficial to us, even if it appears that its not.

You never now what may come from any challenge that you face. I feel there's a lot humans have the ability to understand but don’t, perhaps because of what we've been programmed to believe.

When we learn to become calm and still maintain our inner piece no matter what the outer world gives us, only then will we learn the true art of happiness.

Trust me, I’m learning day by day as well

She's waiting..... One day

2009-02-07T15:08:00.002-08:00

I used to believe in love.

I still do.

I'm just afraid to take chances again.

Its too risky.

I realize that when I fall, I fall hard.

Sometimes I put others before myself but never get the same treatment.

I see women differently now.

Beautiful but equally complex creatures.

When it seems you have them figured out you realize there's much more to discover.

I realized that it makes no sense to spend the effort trying to figure someone else out while losing more of myself in the process. This is what I fight with everyday.

It seems that love was a fight in which I never came out a winner.

I loved sincerely, wholeheartedly, and unconditionally and finally came to the conclusion that people do not quite know what they want. If this is the case and human minds are constantly changing and growing, is the idea of committment unrealistic? If we know that people are capable of changing their mind, would it be a risk to engage someone with the intent of starting a lifelong union?

" Is it better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all" -Alfred Lord Tennyson:

Maybe I'll settle for the latter though my heart tells me never give up.

Sometimes what you seek will come to you when you least expect it.

I'll just have to settle for love when she comes............

One Day...

Heartbreak Chronicles Part 5: The Ending

2009-02-05T05:16:00.000-08:00

She needs space
But I need her…..
I want her as mine
But the thoughts defer…

Maybe later she says….
But times more greater…
So I just watch baby girl turn me to a hater

And I don’t want to call her
Cause she got a new friend
This here is a nuisance
Tryna patch loose ends…..

This is so confusing
No laughing matter
Cause…….
I don’t find it funny
Other dudes getting at her…

And now that I’m messed up
Send me to a clinic
Cause the pain that I feel is
Unprecedented

And now we don’t talk
Look each other in the eye
Acknowledge what we had…
Guess those memories....... died?

Now baby girl's married
Husband and some kids
Now I’m left with the nightmare
Of what it now is………
The fact what it was?
Aint the same how it is
Too hurt to display an emotion from a tear……………………

The Peace Within > The chaos Without

2009-02-02T06:53:00.000-08:00

“When you can be calm in the midst of activity, this is the true state of nature. When you can be happy in the midst of hardship, then you see the true potential of the mind.” – Unknown

You ever wonder why when it’s just you and your thoughts with no distractions, you are most at peace? Our days are filed with deadlines, obligations, fulfillments, and the like. So when do we have time for ourselves? Our minds tend to wander here and there about any and every little thing until the focus is on nothing. Take the time to relax. Inhale peace and contentment. Exhale stress and negative energy.

“Be still and know that I am God”

When you further analyze this statement, you realize that to be still is to be in a state of calmness (at peace). To know that despite how things may appear to be, the universe is watching and planning something good on your behalf.

The Nature of Life

2009-01-26T05:22:00.000-08:00

The one thing that is a constant in life is change. It is the nature of things. Winter becomes Fall. Spring becomes Summer but despite the recurrence of seasons, nothing remains the way it used to be. Just like the seasons, we also change and because we are all individuals with different though patterns, sometimes the change we incur takes us in different directions.

“Sooner or Later it all comes crashing down”- N.e.r.d

Some of us become fixated on what used to be remaining attached to what was, denying what is, disregarding what’s to become. We become angry or sad over losing someone we love. The experience leaves us feeling bewildered and sad...yet we don’t know, do we?

Don’t blame yourself.. (easier said than done cause I know)
Realize that what occurred is the best possible thing that could happen to you. For out of this can only come a lesson to make you a better person.

“ What doesn’t kill a person can only make them stronger, but if it drives them to kill themselves, then they weren’t strong all along”

The Universe (God) knows tomorrow
You only know today

So take all that you’re going thru, all the hurt, all the pain, and all the disappointment, release it, and move on…….

and when you become stronger,

you'll look back at it and laugh about it.....

A cosmic joke indeed

The Eulogy: I am the Sun

2009-01-13T05:11:00.000-08:00

What becomes of us when there becomes an end? What do we leave behind when our spirits ascend?

The great Jay-Z once said,

“Aint in it for the fame, that dies within weeks
Aint in it for the money, can’t take it when you leave
I wanna be remembered long after you grieve, long
After I’m gone, long after I breathe,
I leave all I am in the hands of history"

I thought for a long time what would be my exit song. The song that commemorates my existence on earth. A lasting impression. A Distant Memory. An exclamation. A message to all to remember who I was. The history I made. The people I saved. The lives I touched and changed.

This wouldn’t be sadness but joy. The joy in knowing that I took part in something beautiful. Life. What I was and still will continue to be. Life is energy and energy never dies nor is it destroyed. It just changes form. I will live on thru my spirit, through my music, through my legacy.
I am not this shell. I am not this face nor this body. I am energy
(soul) that occupies a vessel (body). I am one part of a vast whole (the universe).

And when I ascend, I become a part of the sun, so that I may forever shine on everyone that I leave behind…..

Electric Therapy

2009-01-06T11:28:00.000-08:00

Everyone has a favorite song that gets them through their day. While it’s mostly the message found within, its also the emotion that’s felt upon listening and relating to what the artist is saying

The 10 most important songs to me this very moment ( lately I’ve been listening to a lot of rock)

1.) Jet-Shine On- This song makes me think of what I would play at my funeral. It wouldn’t be a moment of sadness but a declaration that I will shine on for everyone that I leave behind. until we meet again…..
2.) Lenny Kravitz- This moment is all there is- If Buddha was a rock star, he most definitely would’ve been Lenny Kravitz. Lenny Kravitz has that ability to touch you with deeply spiritual lyrics infused with timeless melodies. One of the greatest. Bar None
3.) N*E*R*D- Love Bomb- The world doesn’t need another love song. What the world needs is another love bomb to blow all the hatred and injustice that plagues it away………..
4.) Aerosmith- Dream On- What can I Say about this song that the title doesn’t already summarize. Sing with me, sing for the year, sing for the laughter, sing for the tear……….you know the rest
5.) Linkin Park- Leave out all the rest- This song has a similar message to Jet’s shine on. It’s like telling someone that when you’re time comes, and you’re gone……just keep with them the cherished memories and Leave out all the rest.
6.) N*E*R*D-Sooner or later- This is another one of my favorite N.e.r.d songs. Every morning I play this song to remind myself that the past is over and for me to just leave it where it belongs…..behind me.
7.) Rage against the machine-Bombtrack-This is the track I play when I have so much frustration inside and I just want to release it in a positive manner. Rage is one of the reasons why I love Rock music so much.
8.) Pendulum-Granite- This song starts off like its going to be a dope theme song to a horror film, but then before you know it the song strats spazzing out and I start spazzing too! Lmoa! I would love to see this group perform this song live. Can you say insane cause that's what it would be.
9.) X-ecutioners/Black Thought- Executioner Style- Black Thought got it in on this one. The combination of his lyrical grittiness and the X-ecutioners "cuts and blends" made this a great mash up and by the way it was on linkin park's reanimation album.
10.)X-ecutioners feat Mike Shinoda(of Linkin Park)-It's going Down- This song is similar to the one above but instead of Black Thought blessing the mic, it was Linkin Park's Mike Shinoda who went in equally as hard.....

The Perfect Imperfection

2009-01-05T06:22:00.001-08:00

The perfect imperfection

The media has implanted misconceptions in our head about what "beauty" is. Despite us all being imperfect in some way, some of us tend to look down on ourselves because we don't fit the description of what society deems beautiful.
We seem to be most impressed with what's on the outside overlooking the fact that on the inside is who we really are. We are all one in the same which means that when you strip away any outer physical appearance or shell, you get the bare us....the true us.

The soul.

We are made of energy. The energy that makes up the vast universe. The energy that originates from a higher energy source (God). This is what’s meant by we are the same. I know that it can take time to overturn the abuse and pain we’ve done to ourselves (I know, I struggle with these things as well) but everyday should be a day where you look yourself in the mirror and smile because you are in fact a beautiful creation and whether you like or dislike certain things about your physical self, you must realize that it’s only a shell, whose purpose is to shelter the very essence of who you are……

Some call it the soul
Others call it the Psyche.....

I call it you, and there's nothing else like it.

Dreaming Again......

2008-12-24T04:39:00.000-08:00

I'm dreaming again....this time about running away....

do you ever feel like the place you inhabit is not made for you. Deep down inside you feel that its another place out there for you, a place where you can be free. Be yourself.....no pain....no sorrow.....no tomorrows......time doesn't exist in this place....neither does death....life is all there is....

Its beautiful. You should see it....this is my euphoria..my paradise...my nirvana...this isn't fiction or a fairy tale...this is where I am when I'm sleeping....when I'm dreaming.....but never when I'm awake.

This is intransia.

The world that I live in when I'm awake is a world of sorrow, hatred, and injustice.....there's beauty, fairness, and love within as well but not enough to sustain it from its own destruction.Maybe this is the nature of it....maybe I'm not from here because I don't feel like everyone else...I don't think or see things like everyone else....that doesn't mean that everyone else perspective/perception is wrong. It just means that mine is different...

Nothing more...nothing less....there is not a need for others to agree with me or share the same thoughts...just accept me for who I am and how I feel.

I don't expect to be understood by everyone... I could care less what anyone thinks

I want freedom...true freedom......and I will have it soon....

Heartbreak Chronicles Part 4: The Killer

2008-12-22T19:15:00.000-08:00

If there's no hope just straight tell me..
Kill me now without any regard for our friendship
Maybe I need to die again to realize again...the mistake I've made

How could I give u the power to put a bullet to my head... for without you I am better off dead.

End my misery by telling me its over. Who knows if I'll survive the shot..
I've bled before but not like this.....
Would have pulled the trigger myself but I've realize that alive you've brought me bliss.
Now you hold the decision to pull the trigger...
This isn't Russian roulette
But the 6 chamber pistol of regret...
And as I sweat not only tears, the fear is not in dying but lying here crying

knowing that the one who was suppose to love me is now the one to murder me..............

The Simplest Necessity........Becomes

2008-12-19T08:44:00.000-08:00

Where did the love go?

And why didn’t it stay?

What are we chasing that’s real compared to what we’re chasing away?

It seems that our hearts have become resistant to the one true thing that’s vital to our growth. The simplest necessity becomes the most complex luxury that very few benefit from obtaining and keeping for long. Its seems that love started off as the most tranquil desire only to end up becoming the most painful affliction. So what is it that allows us to fall into a deep state of bliss and then in an instant change how we feel because of fear. The fear based upon the assumption that the love we gain will someday be lost…..traumatically….again…..

Yet we don’t know……

We allow ourselves to suffer thinking about what isn’t there instead of what’s here today, very much alive and in our face…..

I can’t make you change your mind if its already been made and I can no longer overexert myself on proving what’s real.

Time will tell.

The Love Vibration

2008-12-18T09:47:00.000-08:00

The integral part of life that’s been missing lately is what we need indeed. Humans have been infected by a parasite, a parasite that feeds on its victims until they become hollow and soul-less, empty cavities with just a shell. It has the nature of a virus that plaques many.

What can be done about this epidemic of hatred?

There’s no longer a vibration. The light that once existed is slowly vanquishing. Could we really thrive, let alone survive within perpetual darkness? What has become of us? We’ve become heartless without gain, placing strain on ourselves and others for the purpose of “advancement” The “hatred complex” has taken over our hearts, our minds, and sadly our lives. Opinions are no longer opinions. They’re no longer statements of our individualism but simply attachments to our ego.

“I hate you”
“I hate her”
“I hate him”
“I hate them”

“You hate yourself”

We are all the same don’t you get it? The same blood runs through our veins. The same thoughts occupy our minds. The same unlimited potential runs through each and every single one of us. So why HATE? What do you gain from hating someone who shares the same capabilities as you? Are we not talented and valuable the same? No? Whose opinion is that anyway? Exactly! Yours. You become what you believe and if you don’t take yourself to greater places from where you’re standing then perhaps the only thing holding you back is yourself. Destroy that self doubt and fear that you feel from seeing others achieve greatness for you too can achieve that same greatness. You must love yourself like there’s no greater love.

You must love others the same.

Release the virus of hate from your mind, body, and soul.

Take the antidote……..

HeartBreak Chronicles Part 3: The Lost

2008-12-18T06:50:00.000-08:00

Without You Why Do I feel Lost?
With you Why Do I Feel The Same.

I've become someone else in order to please you

I have to regain myself.

I've lost much more than I have gained
and experienced much pain than I can explain

Was the act of loving you in vain?

If not, then what was I to learn from this turmoil.....this heartbreak........this pain.

The Garden Within

2008-12-16T10:24:00.000-08:00

The beauty of Nature. The tranquility of something simple yet divine. I've came to a realization that both inner and outer suffering is driven by both inner and outer complexities. True Genuis resides in simplicity. Anything considered to be trivial or senseless, Mr. Carter is going to stay away from. Everyday I'm learning more about myself from my experiences and interactions with the world. I see and read about things that go on in this world; things that are unjust, irrational, or just plain idiotic. I also realize that I have to change my thoughts within in order to change my world without. Life is.....Life and somewhere along the line between birth and now, I've lost focused on what the true meaning of life is. I've put too much emphasis on the vines and weeds of the outer world, forgetting that all along my inner world contained a garden, perfect in nature, aesthetically sound. It feels good to just relax and breath without worry or fear. Its feels wonderful to be Me, to express how I feel and know that I am a beautiful creation.............

and so are you....

Transcendence

2008-12-15T11:58:00.001-08:00

Spaced Out. Dreaming. Floating.
Outside This Atmosphere of Earth
In Search...
Of Something More Inspiring Than This...
For This Environment No Longer Offers Me Bliss

I've Realized the Dilemma to Rationalize
Chance after Chance

Only to realize that the "other side"
holds the key to my "advance"

No Longer a Need For Reasoning.

{Just Go.....) whispers my conscience in my ear
And as I stand here, what appears before me is the light to soar me
to places beyond....

places foreign yet considered to be fond.

Now some may call this insane, but crazy is to think that "normal" resides on this "earthly plane"

And as I arise, my eyes peer upward, never to face the downward spiral

Again......

Heartbreak Chronicles Part 2: The Healing

2008-12-14T09:24:00.000-08:00

Shit happens. Right?

So why is it that I'm still hurting from what happen 10 months ago on that dreadful day when she said, " I need space, its not you its me." I realize that since that day I'm became a self destructive emotional wreck but not many would know because I never show it. Initially I've tried to get "her" to change her mind. I've begged, I've pleaded, I apologized, and blamed myself. I became less of a person, less of a man to make "her" more of a woman. I eventually said f*ck it and moved on after witnessing certain things that brought the "I need space syndrome" to light. I've seen "her" with the guy, even had a face to face confrontation with "him." I've felt betrayed, used, and hurt from this experience. They say that the amount of time you've invested in building a relationship that collapsed is the same amount of time it takes to rise from the the collapse back to a foundation again. I know it wont take me 3.5 years to get it together but from this I've learned to take one day at a time and if someone comes along, maybe I will cautiously give them a chance but until then.....

I've become heartless

The Gift

2008-12-04T15:18:00.000-08:00

We hear it all the time so I'll say it again

Life is a precious gift...the one thing that's temporal but also unappreciated the same. I'm discovering everyday that some things that we put emphasis and importance on really don't matter..Do you wonder what you would do if you knew you only had one day to live? Could you accomplish all you wanted to do in one day if that was all you had? What about a week? A Month? 6 months? A year? The fact is we don't know and because we don't know, we must make the most of everyday while we are here.

When you hear people say to live everyday like its your last, some people adhere to it while with others it goes in one ear and out the other but the reality is tomorrow's not promised for anyone and you wouldn't want your final days to be those of regret now would you? Of course not! So if this be the case why continue to work at that lousy job you hate, endure unnecessary stress and headaches, stay in an abusive relationship, or worry about things or people who don't benefit you. I can go on forever but the basis of what I'm saying is that
We should seize every opportunity that gives us fulfillment, brings us happiness, and makes us smile. We should never procrastinate or feel like we have plenty of time left to make things right, to get ourselves together, to seek fulfillment, and most important of all, to be happy.. The perfect time for these things is not tomorrow..... but now. Right now! We must be aware of the moment of now and embrace it because this may be..... the last moment we have.......
to right the wrongs,
to tell someone you love them,
to fulfill all that you desire....

"Life is precious through the eyes of those who see that the end of it is near"

I dedicate this post to my cousin Debbie.... may you truly be at peace in a much better place.........

The Idiot's Idiom

2008-11-26T16:03:00.000-08:00

A language spoken by many yet understood by few
Senseless nonsense from “robots” without a conscience
Devious smiles and those that pose to be harmless.

Deceitfulness is comedy
For I laugh at the motive of those who instill harm on me

Hostile environments created by those without a higher sense
Overlabored and Underfavored
We now see where their “desire” went

For they’ve digressed.
From feeling that progress
Was to stab one another in the back

From what I see….

Integrity took a vacation and never came back.
But what truly remains a fact is that

What’s given will surely come back

The universal law, you can’t run from that
The universal law, you can’t run from that……

Lauryn Hill-Forgive Them Father

The Inspiration of a Rockstar

2008-11-20T18:48:00.000-08:00

It's seems people have yet to understand what a true rockstar is..........While people make it a trend to be like a rockstar, the ones that are emulated make it a lifestyle. Its what they identify with; that ability to express themselves as rebels to rules and order, categorized as misfits but simply Ministers who preach the gospel of Rock and Roll.

A rockstar is more than a coke snorting, skinny jean wearing renegade who does whatever they want whenever they want....

NO!!

It's more to it than that although that's a description of some but a rockstar is simply about being oneself and being comfortable in one's own skin. It's about the energy of a million fans chanting your songs sourrounded by a mosh pit of renegade followers who go insane the moment they hear the riff of an electric guitar screaming through the speakers.

A rock star is simply about being...never about impressing.

People never understood the fitted screen tees on 80's rockers or the skinny denim pressed against the pencil frame of your favorite indie frontman. It was simply cool to be a rockstar, not because they were different, but because they never gave a damn what anyone thought and although many of them were misunderstood, the music they created made sure the message was comprehended: That they were the baddest muthaf*ckers on earth.

"You will never really understand the muthaf*cking Rockstar I am"

Sage Phenix-Misunderstood

Mental Breakdown: The Chaos behind Conformity

2008-11-20T13:09:00.000-08:00

It's the same old bullshit and the same old folklore. Something has to give. Chaos and disorder……who made these rules? While I won’t make excuses or complain about the ways of this world…. I realize that something just isn’t right with it…..well its nothing wrong with the world per say but rather the unjust thinking and philosophies of mankind that creates endless conflict and suffering within it.

Does anyone truly observe what is happening anymore…… it seems like everything has become a “game”. Sometimes I wish I can remove myself completely from this “system” of the way things are. Maybe I’m a bit of an idealist here or some may say that my thinking is unrealistic or illogical but what is it about my thinking that makes it anymore different from the world’s thinking other than the fact that my thinking promotes freedom and the awareness of one’s true self, not the artificial one created by labels, luxury badges, and monetary spending.

A Net worth is how we’re valued in this society but are we not valuable BEFORE the obtainment of monetary wealth?

Sure I have more of a laid back approach to life and yes I do feel that I’m still a victim, slave or puppet to many things as well but what better time than now for you and I to free ourselves:

1.) To free ourselves from being victims of our own as well other people’s destructive thinking.
2.) To free ourselves from a system that use and exploit people for its own benefit
3.) To free ourselves from conformity for in the words of the late John F. Kennedy, “Conformity is the jailer of freedom and the enemy of growth.’’

Whether voluntary or not, we as people have given up our peace, our identity, our happiness, and our joy in exchange for frustration, sadness, and pain.

…This is the slavery that I am talking about. The bondage or obligation to someone or something that does us more harm than good. The jobs that we despise and hate waking up every morning to go to, the creditors and bill collectors that we’ve sold our souls to, and the corporations and finance companies that we’ve given our last dollars to in exchange for products and services that we really don’t need nor want for long because the desire for it fades as something new and exciting is bound to replace it.

Ah! And did I mention the status quo lifestyle of keeping up with the joneses to impress others as well as gain their approval. I can go on and on and yes, people are very much aware of all the bullsh*t and folklore this world contains but what’s really being done about it? It’s like we’ve given up and just conformed because a lot of us feel like its easier being someone else instead of ourselves.

We must break free.

Adversity

2008-11-19T09:17:00.000-08:00

Adversity builds character…………I never understood that til I had a conversation with a dear friend of mine about the challenges of everyday life. Some days are truly rough and you begin to ask yourself, "will it ever get better?" You hear all the time people telling you to hang in there and that the small situations do not justify the "big" picture. But what is in fact, the big picture? In the grand scheme of things, how is the constant wave of un necessary stress and aggravation from others justified. It’s like a bully that keeps torturing you, eating away at what little peace you have until there’s nothing left… You begin to feel one of two ways. You either feel like giving up allowing it or you fight back to reclaim what has been taken from you. Sometimes you have to show people that you’re not to be f*cked with…

Some people don’t want to see you happy, more so because they’re unhappy with themselves. Misery sure do loves company. Sometimes I ask myself if what I’m going thru now in my life is preparation for something bigger. Maybe it is. Who knows what the future beholds. I know that am strong and I can overcome this. I will admit it does at times seem overwhelming but I feel in my heart that I will overcome this. The reality is people are going to be and probably remain the way they are whether its unjust or unfair. I just realize that I have to remove myself from these situations and/or people that provide confusion and chaos because honestly a peace of mind is a wonderful thing and mine is not to be f*cked with.

Heartbreak Chronicles Part 1: The Lesson

2008-11-17T18:55:00.000-08:00

Heartbreak. What can I say about it. It happens to the best of us. The inevitable depression. I've learned that I should no longer blame myself. Everything isnt always meant to be. Some relationships prosper while others wither away. This was just one relationship that wasnt meant to be the way my heart intended. What's funny is that we as people will never learn the consequences of our actions until it's too late. It's easy to feel from one's own perspective that we were the victims receiving the short end of the stick. Sometimes it's self gratifying to impose that the victimizer is our worst enemy when in fact the victimizer can be our greatest teacher. So sure, I've had my heart broken or rather my expectations unmet but what didnt kill me only made me stronger and its gonna take the might of a million men for her or any woman for that matter to break it again.................

I now close out with

Kanye West - Tell Everyone You Know (Feat. Lil Wayne)

Right Now Is Always Right On Time

2008-11-12T18:59:00.000-08:00

There are days where sometimes you feel like giving up...the sorrow of an unforgettable past and the fear of an unknown tomorrow. You feel trapped between two periods of time unable to grasp what you have been privileged to experience.....which is TODAY!

There is a saying,

Yesterday is history.
Tomorrow is a mystery.
Today is a gift.
That's why they call it the present.

Although people and situations may have left us hurt, and we've hurt others as well, we can not change the past. We can only become better people today.. I've learned that one moment is all that matters. The only thing of importance. Not the moment of yesterday, even tomorrow but the ever present moment of....NOW!!

So don't cha worry bout tomorrow, how you feel right now....don't worry about yesterday, aint everything ok right now

Right now is always right on time...........

Sage x Punk

2008-11-12T16:54:00.000-08:00

Hip Hop is in a state of Emergency. Artists are no longer passionate, creative, or stimulating. It's a new day, a new era, but not a spec of new inspiration. But....
all is not lost within the stale realm of "hip hip". Artists are emerging once again. Creativity is coming back.Did these things really leave? Maybe we failed to take notice to the host of artists out there that actually have something to say. Artist who all along were the ones we were searching for. Yes Hip Hop, as least one aspect of it has become a redundant comedy show but in no way,shape, or form is it dead. Some say it's missing; others tend to think it's alive and well, a living and breathing force that's found in all of us. A reflection of the people. Some of us dance, some of us snap, some of us socially conscience, some of us socially ignorant but regardless of who we are individually, the fact remains that we are all the same........and despite our differences or whatever state you may think hip hop is in, I still love it.. Hell I always will. This is my comedic take on the state of hip hop.

Sage Punk

The Lost Hope of a Broken Child

2008-11-09T08:26:00.000-08:00

IF HAPPINESS CAN NOT BE FOUND CAN LIFE SERVE A PURPOSE AND
WHEN ITS REVEALED THAT WHAT WE SOUGHT NEVER WAS,WOULD IT HAVE BEEN WORTH IT?

IS LIFE REALLY WHAT YOU MAKE IT? AND IF SO COULD I HAVE MADE IT
BECOME
PAIN, SORROW AND SELF HATRED......

THE DESIRE TO FIGHT IS NO MORE AS I AM UNSURE
WHAT IT IS EXACTLY THAT IM FIGHTING FOR...............
THERE HAS TO BE MORE......

MUSE- LESS AND USELESS......FRUSTRATED AND FRUITLESS..........NEGATIVE ENERGY THE SYMMETRY WHICH LINKS ME TO FOREVER BEING THE ENEMY
OF MYSELF...............

SHOULD I GIVE UP AND GIVE IN IF ITS INEVITABLE THAT I WONT WIN................
AND...........

IF MY MIND CONTAINS WONDERS.......
THAT ONLY I CAN EXPLAIN THEN WOULD IT HAVE BEEN IN VAIN

IF THE VEIN .....
THAT CONATAINED ......
THAT WHICH KEEPS ME SUSTAINED......
WAS DRAINED

AND MY BRAIN
BECAME
THAT WHICH CAN NOT FUNCTION

WITHOUT A PHYSICAL FRAME...............

WOULD YOU MISS ME THEN?

Modern Day Metropolis

2008-11-05T08:19:00.000-08:00

Beyond cloudy skies.......this metropolis lies...

Have we not yet awaken to the order of domination;

the one world order of mankind's enslavement.

The voice of the voiceless.

no longer free to make choices

we must rage against the machine

Behold, for what lies upon this globe of insanity is the control of humanity

and what remains of a circuit implanted populace is

a modern day apocalypse

disguised as

a modern day metropolis

The Idea Of Tomorrow

2008-11-03T09:25:00.000-08:00

The Idea of tomorrow.........

Lies hope.

Lies progress.

The notion of mankind existing as one.

A Nation.

Sustained by the foundation of unity.

Empowered minds

Improved School Systems

Stronger Communities

This is Change

What WE must become if WE wish to see that CHANGE take place in the world

The Idea of Tomorrow.

The Ending of sorrow

The Beginning of Better Days

WE ARE THE ONES- OBAMA

YES WE CAN- BARACK OBAMA VIDEO

WILL.I.AM- IT'S A NEW DAY

NEW WORLD DISORDER

2008-10-24T04:40:00.000-07:00

ATTACK OF THE CLONES
AMONGST BATTLEFIELDS AND WARZONES
DESOLATED COMMUNITIES
DILAPIDATED AND TORN HOMES

FORECLOSED BRICK AND MORTAR
UNEDUCATED SONS AND DAUGHTERS
BEHOLD

THIS HERE MODERN DAY NEW WORLD DISORDER.

CRASHED MARKETS AND GOVERNMENTAL SLAUGHTER
CORPORATE CORRUPTION AND ASPARTAME CAUSED MENTAL DISORDERS

FEAR INDUCED SOCIETIES, LAWS AND POLICIES, MEANT TO ENSLAVE
NO LONGER A SOCIETY OF RIGHTEOUSNESS BUT A SOCIETY DEPRAVED.....

IS THIS HOW WE'LL BE LEAD TO OUR GRAVE?

JUSTICE- STRESS

2008-10-22T16:59:00.000-07:00

A BAND OF MISFITS CAUSING DESTRUCTION AND WRECKING HAVOC TO ANYTHING AND ANYONE THAT STEPS FOOT IN THEIR PATH.......YOU DONT WANT TO RUN INTO THESE GUYS IN THE STREET.

2008-10-22T13:50:00.000-07:00

One of the most talented artist of the hip hop genre has decided that he wants to name his upcoming album 808's and heartbreak. A different direction might I add from the scholastic theme of his previous albums. Mr west has also decided that he wants to sing in autotune as well. While not intitially accepted in the hip hop community as a common kanye west single, Love Lockdown quickly rose to the top of the downloads charts as the # 1 , yes #1 downloaded song on itunes. Yes haters, Mr West is giving you all something to blog or hate about all over again

Check it out

Kanye West- Love Lockdown

http://www.thefader.com/articles/2008/9/10/freeload-kanye-west-love-lockdown

EGO: MANKINDS FALSE IDENTITY

2008-10-21T12:46:00.000-07:00

"If we're ever going to become better people, we have to put our ego's to the side and our hearts to the forefront" -unknown

what is it about man's desire for the top position: To strive for greatness is essential but to strive to obtain the top spot is idiotic. What comes from from being #1. The scrutiny. The pressure. The stress of maintaining a spot that's not meant to be held onto. Being #1 is temperal, someone will always be willing to take over your position. Once you obtain it, you would then have to guard it with your life. What kind of fulfillment can you really get out of being at the top alone other than the stroking of the ego?

Let's stop playing king/queen of the hill and help others share the mountain.

Free Your Mind

2008-10-21T12:18:00.000-07:00

You don’t have to stress no more……….It’s all mental………..things are only what you perceive them to be. You have to take a deep breath and relax and realize that you’re situation is just a situation. People are the way they are because they’re “victims” of a system meant to keep them enslaved to corporations, finance companies, etc. They truly are genuine people mislead. Don’t allow their inner frustrations to get to you. They’re just crying out for help but don’t know how to express it productively. The world we live in is a reflection of our thoughts. People are constantly lead by fear and the need to be accepted. Right now everyone’s or at least most people’s mental state is worry and frustration. How am I going to do this? I got to get this loan to pay off this, I need this amount of money to do this, gas is too damn high, the economy is in a recession. Negativity, Negativity, Worry, Worry, Fear, Fear, Frustration, Frustration. Just allow yourself for one minute to exist in a state of no worry, want, need or frustration. Say to yourself that I am free, I feel free, I feel wonderful. I have no worries, pain, or wants. Money, Status, or physical things do nothing for me spiritually. These things are an illusion and do not define who I am. I’m no longer a prisoner to financial institutions, consumer debt, and the need to conform to what society considers “normal”

Release yourself………….float beyond the clouds into an atmosphere of comfort and peace
It starts with your mind…free your mind of all stress, worry, fear, lack, frustration,

Free your mind

Words of Wisdom

2008-10-21T12:16:00.000-07:00

Keep pushing…….adversity is only a test of character…….. people got used to walking in a straight line. The only thing that changed was that a maze was placed in front of our path…………we only need to find a way out these “challenging” times. Stay focus” and “know” what needs to be done to get you through the maze. You have a mind that’s completely functional, which means you have a solution to every problem you encounter. Get rid of distractions. Clear your mind of clutter and useless junk, only then will you hear the voice inside that will lead you to where you need to go……

( I KNOW I may sound like yoda right now but I am serious.)

All answers are found within.

Discipline my brother……….
Discipline. Discipline. Discipline.

“If we fail to pay attention to simple matters, how will we ever be able to grasp the more complex ones” - unknown